Nomang, the star child

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Nomang Ordorial [ Insalian Voranial ]
Two years and seven months old (18 y/o human)
Scented of the ocean, milk, herbal ingredients, and the forest.

Suffers from genetic hemeralopia (day blindness)
Carries 9 scars on her form with a tale to each.
Struggling with mental issues (repressed depression, negative self thoughts)

Daughter to Bacchus, Geane, and Ophelia
Adopted daughter to Grimoire
Adopted niece to Daxon and Jester

Mother to Khadgar, Hetho, and Joar
Sister to a lot of siblings, and Raul
Aunt to a few.

Friends with Jacky and Sebastian
MASSIVE crush on Sebastian

Created 6/28/18.
Joined Pack of the Intrepidus at 7/21/18.
Left Pack of the Intrepidus at 10/23/18
Gave birth to Khadgar, Hetho, and Joar 10/28/18
Joined Revolu 11/11/18






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Nomang was born a child who lead her life by her heart and let her mind settle in the backdrop. Impulsive. Her way of being raised led her to be ignorant, and immature and innocent in her viewpoint of the world even when she was of an adolescent age. It took quiet a few incidents, including one which lead to her becoming pregnant, to be forced through this. Now, she is a mature and responsible mother struggling with mental issues dug up from her childhood. She easily gets frustrated because she tries to use her head more than her heart, which leads her to be indecisive. But deep within, a true character is emerging...

Nomang tries to help others with their problems but hides her own deep within her heart. She doesn't like to talk about her own issues, which leads to her snapping at those who try to dig under there.

She's not a quick thinker, but she's creative and learns quickly.

[ Impulsive, Stubborn, Blunt, Playful, Shy, Proud, Overprotective, Possessive ]


She's muscularly strong in her legs and shoulders, built to climb. She has long and sharp claws that are great for climbing but not for running. She is a terrible swimmer. Her experience in fighting and hunting is abysmal. Her medicine skills are okay.

[ Strength - 9/10 ]  [ Speed - 3/10 ]  [ Climbing - 11/10 ]  [ Swimming - 1/10 ]  [ Fighting - 3/10 ]  [ Hunting - 1/10 ]  [ Medicinal - 6/10 ]






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Nomang's Voice / Theme Song


For Khadgar, Hetho, and Joar.  < 3


For Sebastian







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Grimoire
(family) (loves) (protects) (trusts)

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Nomang listens to her father the most in all the pack. She has even opened up to him about her self hatred and depression. She takes his advice first and others second. He worries her though, with his own mental issues.. and his lack of a relationship. She wants her father to have love like he deserves it, like the love he has been not able to grasp.

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(to Grimoire)
"I'm not okay... I'm not.. She said that he didn't give a shit about me. That they didn't. Elise. I gave her my trust and she shoved it away for her daughter. I was just tired.. tired of the pregnancy. I just wanted to... to sleep and I couldn't I... I. And then he came. But he was just doing it out of an obligation and angering you and- There's something wrong about me. I'm so ugly, no one could love me like that. Not even Sebastian is- What's wrong with me? Why couldn't he love me?"

"That.. that just proves my point. I’m so scarred, my coat isn’t made for me to be able to hunt and I’m too small to fight. The claws that I used to climb now hinder me. I can’t see at day! I’m a useless creature in.. in this! I can’t even heal Sebastian or his sister properly without fucking up! I’m so fucking useless that it makes me ugly! I wish my mother abandoned me in the snow like is natural for wrong pups. I might even pass my sight to them! Elise was right about that. Zut shouldn’t have even gotten close to me when I got.. g..ot like that..  What’s the use in teaching me how to fight... I’ll be dead in my first few steps in a battle against a wolf. I’m useless, ugly, worthless.. you are strong.. I.. I’m not."

"Unique..? What is useful about being unique when you can't help out in a pack. When everyone is better than you and you're simply you looking back at how big the world is. You know, my mother wanted to kill me when I was younger.. my second mother. I guess.. I still wish I was gone. I feel like everyone would have less trouble with that. Now you're all here.. stuck with my goddess who has gotten us into so much trouble. I wondered why I was a crow at the beginning.. but I guess it just started to show after my first breath and I didn't realize it. They'll be okay... without me. They have you all, and Zut. A male who's so much stronger than I am.. to fight so easily without care. I wish I was that strong.. but I'm not. I'll never be that way. I don't know what's so wrong with me.. that I was born this way when other's could be normal. I just.. just want to be.. normal. You.. you didn't make it worse for me. You're fine. So is Elise.. I'm the one that's the problem. I wish he stayed.. so badly. But I'm nothing and he is a burning fire. That's why I made him go. I didn't want him to burn himself out.. I don't have anything to feed him."





Daxon
(pack) (respects) 

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Nomang is grateful to Daxon about helping her give birth and assisting her father's mental health, but his ghostly form puts her on unease. She tends to shy away from him subconsciously because of this. However, because of his relationship with her father she tries to stay amiable and is struggling to trust the male. Aside from that, pack is pack and she'll help him if he helps her.




Khadgar
(family) (loves) (protects) (trusts)

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Nomang draws a lot of resemblance to her father from Khadgar personality-wise. Her eldest is mature and responsible, and worries Nomang the least outside of her general worry for the pups.





Hetho
(family) (loves) (protects) (trusts)

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Nomang loves her daughter very much, but she's worried about how she will take care of her children and raise them with how her mental state is currently. She feels very much so worthless because of her self hatred. Hetho worries her because of her naivety to danger, but she also is glad she has such a jovial child. Hetho brightens up her day.

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(to Hetho)
"Hetho, that can be very dangerous if you get caught in it. You could slip out into the water and be gone forever from me. You have to stay close with your Grandpapi or Uncle or Aunt, or even Jacky when around the curved water. Can you promise me that you won't get close to it without them around, next time?"

"When you're bigger, you can fight those currents all you want and beat them. They will run away from you because you'll be so strong."

"You don't need to be like me and Uncle Dax and Grimoire. You are you, and that's all you need to be. You don't need to be brave, or you can be brave, you can hide under my tail and cry if you need to.. but you can also wander. Just remember to come back safe, and to not take the risks you don't understand."





Joar
(family) (loves) (protects) (trusts)

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Nomang's youngest child, Joar, takes most of her priority. She's concerned with how his coat resembles Zut a lot. She's also more concerned with how quiet he's been.. hiding behind his older sister and brother.






Akita
(enemy) (fears) (hates)

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After Akita tried to get close to her, using weird techniques, Nomang doesn't have much to say. She feels like the dame was there for something malicious.. especially when she tried to look at her children. Akita is now on Nomang's will-kill-on-sight list. Even if she's terrified of her.

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(to Akita)
"Don't you DARE get closer to me!"





Sebastian/Tank/Valter
(pack) (likes lvl4) (trusts) (respects)

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What can a poor girl do when she likes someone? Nomang's impulse control goes out the window when it comes to this male. Her crush, which started out simple even in Intrepidus when she was in heat- has turned into a full blown affection. However, she is crushed between dealing with her own mental problems and watching over her children; and the creation of the new pack. Nomang doesn't know her affections are returned even a little, so she tries to hold back.

Usually, this is possible, but when something comes to harm of him or the like.. instincts and habits don't break.

Update: She's currently nervous about explaining herself to the male. Her thoughts are mainly going around a plan to hide her affections in order to not make him feel obligated to answer her attraction with rejection and see her face.

..Nomang is more scared about being told 'I don't like you' than anything else, so she will try to hold in her impulses and pretend that everything is normal.

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(interaction with Jacky)
"F...fine. Yeah. I like him.. a little. Even before the incident with Zut. I'm a f-Freaking mess. But it doesn't matter, Jacky. He doesn't feel the same way for me, alright? I'm not going to force my feelings and expectations onto him, especially with us all just starting to get settled. He doesn't need the unwanted advances of someone he's not fond of.."

"Besides, I have children to take care of. I don't need more.. nor do I need to confuse their expectations on who's 'dad'. At the very least they have the whole pack.. watching over them like family. They don't need a father figure.. my dad can do that."

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(to Tank)
"Oh. I... I've been with my family. I'm sorry I didn't say goodbye to you."

"I'm fine."

"Don't you fucking dare say shit when you weren't in my paw-steps at that moment. Nothing could fix what was said between us. So I left. Even if I had a fucking choice to go back and change what I did.. I wouldn't change a fucking thing."

"You...you aren't moving an-n-ny where until you h-heal, understand?"

(whisper to self heard by tank, doesn't know he heard it)
"Damnit... This... is what I get for liking someone... too much..."





Aera
(pack) (neutral)

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Nomang doesn't really know what to think of Sebastian's sister. She seems polite and all, but they haven't shared many interactions for her to be certain about her stance. For Nomang, Aera is pack, and pack is someone you take care of and takes care of you. She'd love to get to know the dame better, though.

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(to Aera)
"I'm fine."





Jester
(pack) (respects)

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Daxon's sister hasn't had many interactions with Nomang. She simply sees her as pack, and so takes care of her and expects it in return. She'd love to get to know the dame better, though.

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"..."





Jacky
(pack) (friend) (respects)

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Jacky conflicts Nomang. She is a jolly female that wants to help her out with her children, but it doesn't keep her off the unease. She's too observant. Especially on topics Nomang doesn't like touched, like her relationship with Sebastian.

After sharing stories with her, however, she pities Jacky. Doesn't give her an excuse for prying though.

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(to Jacky)
"...My condolences. My family's pride bred from their ability to contribute; including whelping pups.. leading the pack, and hunting and fighting. My brother.. he had strength in that part wherein I had none. Only my half-blood brother, Moondire, shared an interest with me in medicine. I just couldn't.. do what the others could. But father (to Grimoire) states that everyone has strengths and weaknesses.. why we rely on packs. I guess my 'strength' is in medicine, even if I suck at it so terribly that I should just be casted out and waste away in a dark corner. I've made too many mistakes, but he still believes in me. It.. I don't know."

"Thank you for seeing me as a sister.. I guess. I'm not much of a good person still; but I'm trying. This load is... something I still think is reserved for me. A punishment for my careless actions. I love them a lot, but I still think of the 'what ifs'... but I can't change anything; now."

"What? No! He- I- You're- What- No, no. NO! On TOP of Sebastian being able to handle your ass any day, not needing my protection I am useless at fighting what do you mean I could save him from anything, Sebastian nor I have any feelings for each other!
I mean.. he didn't outright say it, but telling someone like me to go fuck a plant and getting close to me and then... Why am I telling you this? Just.. no. Please don't imagine anything like that in the future.. Jacky.. he and I don't view each other like that. He already told me so in my last HEAT!"

"F...fine. Yeah. I like him.. a little. Even before the incident with Zut. I'm a f-Freaking mess. But it doesn't matter, Jacky. He doesn't feel the same way for me, alright? I'm not going to force my feelings and expectations onto him, especially with us all just starting to get settled. He doesn't need the unwanted advances of someone he's not fond of.."

"Besides, I have children to take care of. I don't need more.. nor do I need to confuse their expectations on who's 'dad'. At the very least they have the whole pack.. watching over them like family. They don't need a father figure.. my dad can do that."





Raul
(family) (loves) (protects) (trusts)

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Nomang is glad to see her brother is alive and... okay? She was exhausted after healing Sebastian, but she wants to talk to him about the stories she's gathered and.. wants to know what's up with him. He seems a little off compared to what she remembers. But, her child-like memories are distorted, so she's unsure.

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(to Raul)
"R...rAUL?"

"I have.. so many.. so many questions, but I think we need to get him inside first. Is he on your back?"

"Brother- -what in the Mother Nature's fury happened to you? Your... your pelt is black! ...explain yourself later."





Deirdre
(uncertain) (curious about) (neutral) (acquaintance)

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Nomang is confused about the male sounding female. She wasn't able to get much talking in, but since she's with her brother, she is a little less nervous about her. Nomang also is curious.. if there's anything going on between the two of them.

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(to Deidre)
"I have.. so many.. so many questions, but I think we need to get him inside first."

"Deirdre, was it? I need you to take this moss and dunk it in the ocean, then come back to me."